Different city…SOS

Dateline – Rochester, NY – At least I have changed my locale a little. It seems like I have been spending the majority of my time in Syracuse. Not that it is a bad town. It is just NOT where I want to be spending my time, especially during the last 4 months. The rain and the cold along with a good bit of snow have truly done a number on my “alleged” psyche.

Usually, a change of scenery brightens up my outlook. But that just isn’t the case at the moment. This customer has just as many or more warts than the last two and is not even trying to meet half way on this.

At this point in time, it doesn’t really matter what city/customer I go to. I feel like the customer has permission to hand me my head and serve it to me cold. The only solace that I take away from the experience is that over 90% of customer’s reaction is not based on my performance, but more on the limitations of the product that I am attempting to implement. That being said, I could ALWAYS do a better job. And the last 4 months have been spent for nothing if they haven’t been a true learning experience.

I don’t mind getting experience. I just don’t want to know walking in the door I am heading for one and not knowing which direction it is going to come from. Everyday is a new revelation. If it was just a revelation to me, I could accept it. In many, if not all, the surprise comes to the company as well.

But, all is not as bad as it seems. I got a call the other day from someone who is definitely interested in my services. Services that I KNOW I can provide and at a price that bases out even better than this position.

On the third hand, I have been seriously eyeing some condo’s in St. Augustine, FL. I gotta do something. I feel like a shark that isn’t moving.

And at he end of the day, perhaps THAT is the problem. I am seemingly never secure in my present situation. I feel like I started to think about retirement later than most and I am trying hard to make up for lost time. I need help.